Monday, March 10, 2008

What Do You Do When You Can't Do Anything?




What a title huh? Geez. You know, I've really been in a quandary today about what to post about . I've been really preoccupied, over the last several days, with our daughter Crystal's BF, Tasha. We've known her since she was about 12 or 13yrs old. A little girl, with So much potential. We love her. We've made her a member of this family. She calls us Mom and Dad...and she has the ability to absolutely, break our hearts. It's Not intentional. Some would just laugh and call it a Blonde thing. Not me. I Know better. I know Lots of Blondes that are powerful, strong and loaded with self-esteem. They Know when to get off the tracks when they see a train headed straight for them.
All of you, that have followed my blog since I began, Know me fairly well. You know that I do Not like to blog about the Drama in life. The pain or anguish of life, which can and does happen to all of us, in some way or other, every day. I Love life. I believe in magic and happiness. I can't stand it when I see someone in pain. I want to "fix" it. Forgiveness and joy are just the flip sides of destructiveness and anger. I've had my share of the dramas. I Totally believe drama in one's life, is self induced. It absolutely boggles my mind when I watch someone just sit down and let life just roll over them instead of standing up and making each moment count for something! There are several faithful readers of my blog that have had the very worst of life reach out and grab them and it's really hard to not be able to "fix" it for them...BUT....They are dealing with what life threw at them. They are Not just sitting back and letting life run over them. They're fighting for happiness and I salute and admire them. If you slap someone and they slap you back, have you not induced a drama? If you continually repeat the same mistake, over and over again, are you not inducing a drama? If you continually do things in your life, that are self destructive, are you not participating in Drama?? What do you have, when the drama in your life, is all you have to hold on to?
Tasha forgave...Again...someone who is a Big producer of drama. I can't fix it. She just does not understand the concept of...trainwreck. What else can I say to her that I haven't already said? Sometimes you just have to let the trainwreck happen...and it breaks our hearts.
I'm sorry if I actually wrote a "downer" post today...I Should have just gone to the bookstore and gotten lost in the aisles of books, drinking a Grande Chocolate Mocha coffee...lol.